{"id":318,"date":"2023-02-04T11:16:22","date_gmt":"2023-02-04T11:16:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com\/?p=318"},"modified":"2023-02-04T11:16:23","modified_gmt":"2023-02-04T11:16:23","slug":"hesaplasma","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/","title":{"rendered":"Hesapla\u015fma"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

G\u00fcnl\u00fck<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yazm\u0131yorum, esasen yazam\u0131yorum birka\u00e7 ayd\u0131r. Herhalde be\u015f ay oldu hat\u0131rat\u0131ma bir sat\u0131r yazmayal\u0131. Birka\u00e7 mektup ve dandik bir iki deneme par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 da saymazsak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok asl\u0131nda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bundan biraz s\u00fcre \u00f6nce -ne kadar oldu\u011funu ben de bilmiyorum, belki birka\u00e7 ay belki birka\u00e7 y\u0131l- bir kelebe\u011fin kanad\u0131nda r\u00fczgar olan duygular\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim, bunal\u0131m\u0131m ve dahi benli\u011fim f\u0131rt\u0131naya evirildi art\u0131k. Kas\u0131rga oldu, y\u0131kt\u0131, \u00e7\u0131\u011f yaratt\u0131. Ben de o \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda kal\u0131verdim. \u00c7ok \u015fey oldu, herkesi sorgulad\u0131m i\u00e7imde, en zoru kendim oldu. Arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 sorgulad\u0131m, \u00e7o\u011fu ge\u00e7er not alamad\u0131, dostlar\u0131m\u0131n kimi yan\u0131mda olmad\u0131. Ben, bene de k\u00fcst\u00fcm zaten. Ayn\u0131 hatalar\u0131 yapt\u0131m tekrar, \u00f6lmek istedim tekrar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

C\u00fcmlenin nesnesini de\u011fi\u015ftirmeden eskisi gibi sevmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130nand\u0131m. Sevdim, bir s\u00fcre sesimin tonuna ne\u015fe h\u00e2kim oldu. \u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fcm yine sonra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bazen bir yolun \u00e7\u0131kmaz oldu\u011funu bilirsin de o yola al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan m\u0131d\u0131r nedendir, belki dersin, sonuna kadar gidersin. Ard\u0131na baka baka geri d\u00f6nmek zorunda kal\u0131rs\u0131n sonra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Baz\u0131 \u015feylerin k\u00f6t\u00fc olmas\u0131 gerekmez seni \u00fczmesi i\u00e7in, insanlara verdi\u011fin de\u011ferin geri gelmedi\u011fini g\u00f6r\u00fcnce yeterince \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcn zaten. Bilmiyorum, belki ben abart\u0131yorum ama \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm ger\u00e7ekten.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Safiyane mutsuzlu\u011fun i\u00e7inde hapsolmu\u015f, anl\u0131k hazlarla mutlu olmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir bende gibiyim. Y\u00fcz\u00fcm de\u011fil, kalbim kara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilmiyorum, benim benle mutlu olmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenmem gerek, tabii mutluluk varsa. Eskiden zevk veren \u015feylerin hepsi tats\u0131z. Nedenini bilemiyorum, bir g\u00fcn \u00f6\u011frenirim belki. Gelecek beni korkutmuyor ama karamsarl\u0131\u011fa s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u00fcyor. H\u00fczn\u00fc morfin gibi zerk ediyor sanki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bilemiyorum; bilsem anlayaca\u011f\u0131m, ard\u0131ndan yazaca\u011f\u0131m da ama yazam\u0131yorum. Belki bu yazamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m da bilemememden kaynaklan\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Orijinal Link: https:\/\/bubisanat.com\/posts\/hesaplasma-p-yazmiyorum-esasen-yazamiyorum-birkac-aydir-herhalde-bes-ay-oldu-hatiratima-bir-satir-yazmayali-birkac-mektup-ve-<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

G\u00fcnl\u00fck Yazm\u0131yorum, esasen yazam\u0131yorum birka\u00e7 ayd\u0131r. Herhalde be\u015f ay oldu hat\u0131rat\u0131ma bir sat\u0131r yazmayal\u0131. Birka\u00e7 mektup ve dandik bir iki deneme par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 da saymazsak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok asl\u0131nda. Bundan biraz s\u00fcre \u00f6nce -ne kadar oldu\u011funu ben de bilmiyorum, belki birka\u00e7 ay belki birka\u00e7 y\u0131l- bir kelebe\u011fin kanad\u0131nda r\u00fczgar olan duygular\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim, bunal\u0131m\u0131m ve dahi benli\u011fim … Continue reading “Hesapla\u015fma”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"ngg_post_thumbnail":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[61],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-318","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ss"],"yoast_head":"\nHesapla\u015fma - Ka\u011fan\u015eahin<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"tr_TR\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"Hesapla\u015fma - Ka\u011fan\u015eahin\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"G\u00fcnl\u00fck Yazm\u0131yorum, esasen yazam\u0131yorum birka\u00e7 ayd\u0131r. Herhalde be\u015f ay oldu hat\u0131rat\u0131ma bir sat\u0131r yazmayal\u0131. Birka\u00e7 mektup ve dandik bir iki deneme par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 da saymazsak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok asl\u0131nda. Bundan biraz s\u00fcre \u00f6nce -ne kadar oldu\u011funu ben de bilmiyorum, belki birka\u00e7 ay belki birka\u00e7 y\u0131l- bir kelebe\u011fin kanad\u0131nda r\u00fczgar olan duygular\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim, bunal\u0131m\u0131m ve dahi benli\u011fim … Continue reading "Hesapla\u015fma"\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:url\" content=\"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:site_name\" content=\"Ka\u011fan\u015eahin\" \/>\n<meta property=\"article:published_time\" content=\"2023-02-04T11:16:22+00:00\" \/>\n<meta property=\"article:modified_time\" content=\"2023-02-04T11:16:23+00:00\" \/>\n<meta name=\"author\" content=\"admin\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:card\" content=\"summary_large_image\" \/>\n<meta name=\"twitter:label1\" content=\"Yazan:\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:data1\" content=\"admin\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:label2\" content=\"Tahmini okuma s\u00fcresi\" \/>\n\t<meta name=\"twitter:data2\" content=\"2 dakika\" \/>\n<script type=\"application\/ld+json\" class=\"yoast-schema-graph\">{\"@context\":\"https:\\\/\\\/schema.org\",\"@graph\":[{\"@type\":\"Article\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/#article\",\"isPartOf\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/\"},\"author\":{\"name\":\"admin\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/#\\\/schema\\\/person\\\/6e943dfeb34aebe12e4eb7ca858683ca\"},\"headline\":\"Hesapla\u015fma\",\"datePublished\":\"2023-02-04T11:16:22+00:00\",\"dateModified\":\"2023-02-04T11:16:23+00:00\",\"mainEntityOfPage\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/\"},\"wordCount\":338,\"commentCount\":0,\"articleSection\":[\"SanatSepet\"],\"inLanguage\":\"tr\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"CommentAction\",\"name\":\"Comment\",\"target\":[\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/#respond\"]}]},{\"@type\":\"WebPage\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/\",\"url\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/\",\"name\":\"Hesapla\u015fma - Ka\u011fan\u015eahin\",\"isPartOf\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/#website\"},\"datePublished\":\"2023-02-04T11:16:22+00:00\",\"dateModified\":\"2023-02-04T11:16:23+00:00\",\"author\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/#\\\/schema\\\/person\\\/6e943dfeb34aebe12e4eb7ca858683ca\"},\"breadcrumb\":{\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/#breadcrumb\"},\"inLanguage\":\"tr\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"ReadAction\",\"target\":[\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/\"]}]},{\"@type\":\"BreadcrumbList\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/2023\\\/02\\\/04\\\/hesaplasma\\\/#breadcrumb\",\"itemListElement\":[{\"@type\":\"ListItem\",\"position\":1,\"name\":\"Ana sayfa\",\"item\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/\"},{\"@type\":\"ListItem\",\"position\":2,\"name\":\"Hesapla\u015fma\"}]},{\"@type\":\"WebSite\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/#website\",\"url\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/\",\"name\":\"Ka\u011fan\u015eahin\",\"description\":\"\",\"potentialAction\":[{\"@type\":\"SearchAction\",\"target\":{\"@type\":\"EntryPoint\",\"urlTemplate\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/?s={search_term_string}\"},\"query-input\":{\"@type\":\"PropertyValueSpecification\",\"valueRequired\":true,\"valueName\":\"search_term_string\"}}],\"inLanguage\":\"tr\"},{\"@type\":\"Person\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/#\\\/schema\\\/person\\\/6e943dfeb34aebe12e4eb7ca858683ca\",\"name\":\"admin\",\"image\":{\"@type\":\"ImageObject\",\"inLanguage\":\"tr\",\"@id\":\"https:\\\/\\\/secure.gravatar.com\\\/avatar\\\/a4abdfd0eb859c217a1c9239a179dd2ca471324023da7248fa10837fdc34ba94?s=96&d=mm&r=g\",\"url\":\"https:\\\/\\\/secure.gravatar.com\\\/avatar\\\/a4abdfd0eb859c217a1c9239a179dd2ca471324023da7248fa10837fdc34ba94?s=96&d=mm&r=g\",\"contentUrl\":\"https:\\\/\\\/secure.gravatar.com\\\/avatar\\\/a4abdfd0eb859c217a1c9239a179dd2ca471324023da7248fa10837fdc34ba94?s=96&d=mm&r=g\",\"caption\":\"admin\"},\"url\":\"https:\\\/\\\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\\\/index.php\\\/author\\\/admin\\\/\"}]}<\/script>\n<!-- \/ Yoast SEO plugin. -->","yoast_head_json":{"title":"Hesapla\u015fma - Ka\u011fan\u015eahin","robots":{"index":"index","follow":"follow","max-snippet":"max-snippet:-1","max-image-preview":"max-image-preview:large","max-video-preview":"max-video-preview:-1"},"canonical":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/","og_locale":"tr_TR","og_type":"article","og_title":"Hesapla\u015fma - Ka\u011fan\u015eahin","og_description":"G\u00fcnl\u00fck Yazm\u0131yorum, esasen yazam\u0131yorum birka\u00e7 ayd\u0131r. Herhalde be\u015f ay oldu hat\u0131rat\u0131ma bir sat\u0131r yazmayal\u0131. Birka\u00e7 mektup ve dandik bir iki deneme par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 da saymazsak hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok asl\u0131nda. Bundan biraz s\u00fcre \u00f6nce -ne kadar oldu\u011funu ben de bilmiyorum, belki birka\u00e7 ay belki birka\u00e7 y\u0131l- bir kelebe\u011fin kanad\u0131nda r\u00fczgar olan duygular\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim, bunal\u0131m\u0131m ve dahi benli\u011fim … Continue reading \"Hesapla\u015fma\"","og_url":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/","og_site_name":"Ka\u011fan\u015eahin","article_published_time":"2023-02-04T11:16:22+00:00","article_modified_time":"2023-02-04T11:16:23+00:00","author":"admin","twitter_card":"summary_large_image","twitter_misc":{"Yazan:":"admin","Tahmini okuma s\u00fcresi":"2 dakika"},"schema":{"@context":"https:\/\/schema.org","@graph":[{"@type":"Article","@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/#article","isPartOf":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/"},"author":{"name":"admin","@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/#\/schema\/person\/6e943dfeb34aebe12e4eb7ca858683ca"},"headline":"Hesapla\u015fma","datePublished":"2023-02-04T11:16:22+00:00","dateModified":"2023-02-04T11:16:23+00:00","mainEntityOfPage":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/"},"wordCount":338,"commentCount":0,"articleSection":["SanatSepet"],"inLanguage":"tr","potentialAction":[{"@type":"CommentAction","name":"Comment","target":["https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/#respond"]}]},{"@type":"WebPage","@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/","url":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/","name":"Hesapla\u015fma - Ka\u011fan\u015eahin","isPartOf":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/#website"},"datePublished":"2023-02-04T11:16:22+00:00","dateModified":"2023-02-04T11:16:23+00:00","author":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/#\/schema\/person\/6e943dfeb34aebe12e4eb7ca858683ca"},"breadcrumb":{"@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/#breadcrumb"},"inLanguage":"tr","potentialAction":[{"@type":"ReadAction","target":["https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/"]}]},{"@type":"BreadcrumbList","@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/2023\/02\/04\/hesaplasma\/#breadcrumb","itemListElement":[{"@type":"ListItem","position":1,"name":"Ana sayfa","item":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/"},{"@type":"ListItem","position":2,"name":"Hesapla\u015fma"}]},{"@type":"WebSite","@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/#website","url":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/","name":"Ka\u011fan\u015eahin","description":"","potentialAction":[{"@type":"SearchAction","target":{"@type":"EntryPoint","urlTemplate":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/?s={search_term_string}"},"query-input":{"@type":"PropertyValueSpecification","valueRequired":true,"valueName":"search_term_string"}}],"inLanguage":"tr"},{"@type":"Person","@id":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/#\/schema\/person\/6e943dfeb34aebe12e4eb7ca858683ca","name":"admin","image":{"@type":"ImageObject","inLanguage":"tr","@id":"https:\/\/secure.gravatar.com\/avatar\/a4abdfd0eb859c217a1c9239a179dd2ca471324023da7248fa10837fdc34ba94?s=96&d=mm&r=g","url":"https:\/\/secure.gravatar.com\/avatar\/a4abdfd0eb859c217a1c9239a179dd2ca471324023da7248fa10837fdc34ba94?s=96&d=mm&r=g","contentUrl":"https:\/\/secure.gravatar.com\/avatar\/a4abdfd0eb859c217a1c9239a179dd2ca471324023da7248fa10837fdc34ba94?s=96&d=mm&r=g","caption":"admin"},"url":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/author\/admin\/"}]}},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/318","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=318"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/318\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":319,"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/318\/revisions\/319"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=318"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=318"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ekagansahin.com.tr\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=318"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}